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It’s been a rough couple years.

Took a bit of time to put things back together. A few of you may be aware that on May 23 of 2017 my wife June Klaus passed away.

Some of you may be aware that those last few years were marked by a degree of tension between the two of us. June had for years a very untrusting nature, and probably in part due to the same Keltic background responsible for her flaming red hair, she had something of a temper.

Well during May last year, her health began to suddenly fail. Actually, it had been headed that way for some time, but she stubbornly fought every step of the way, not even asking for help until the last three weeks.

During that last three weeks a, for me, life-changing moment took place. I had taken a step back from my driving job to spend more time trying to make her situation better, although frankly by then there was not much anyone could do. On one visit to Falls City to try to help, when I was ready to leave June stopped me.

She said, “Love you.”

I responded, “Love you too, always have.”

June. “I’ve been wrong about the past, haven’t I?”

Me, “Well yes.”

June. “Can you ever forgive me.”

Me. “Already done.”

Ten days later she was dead.

Several people have asked me a couple questions about those last days.

Question one: “How long does it take to get over the loss?”

Answer: “Don’t know, but I’ll let you know.”

Question two, “Would it have been easier for you if that reconciliation had not happened?”

Answer: “Well that’s a tough one. It was a more painful loss, but I would not have traded one moment of this pain for her death not knowing I loved her.”

So there you go. Heavy stuff I know, but now I begin to slowly go on without her.

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November 11, 2018 - Posted by | Uncategorized

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